what to do?

sorry i have been so bad at blogging lately! you have probably been wondering why-- well i will tell you! i have been in that stage where i keep thinking what do i want to do with my life, where do i want to go, where do i see myself in 5 years....(i guess kind of the normal college crisis stage) so in an attempt to answer some of these questions i decided to read this magazine "secrets of the super rich" i am learning quite a few things such as: persistence is key, i need to desire to accumulate money not spend it, and that luck is preparation meeting a moment of opportunity... 

unfortunately, instead of helping me it just made me have more and more questions. my head feels as though it is going to explode! and while i have no desire to be a billionaire (although, it wouldn't be too shabby, but i just think there is a lot more to life then money and possessions...) but oddly enough i still want to attempt to plan my life- even though i know you can't really plan your life, something inside me keeps telling myself that I can. 

so even though i know i can't plan my life and that people's "plans" hardly ever work out... am i totally crazy for trying?! and for feeling stressed about not having one. i know i have a lot of time but i don't feel like i do and i hate not knowing.... i just wish i was laid back and a "go with the flow" type person, but i'm not! and i feel like to go somewhere you have to take action.... sorry for blabbing on and on i will just stop right now.